300

nights of sleeping in the same bed

300 mornings of waking up to this

Cosleeping

I can't say enough good things about it.

Yes there have been lots of uncomfortable nights,
waking up with a sore neck from sleeping on one side all night long
keeping her in the crook of my arms,

lots of interrupted sleep because her cries have woken me up
a little girl who spent way too many nights alone
just needing to be held
needing to know her mama is still here
still real.
There have been lots of giggles
lots of snuggles
lots of "ok, last one and then we have to get some sleep".
There have even been some injuries
like the time she split my lip by bringing her head down on my face.
(we like to sleep really close to each other)

She prefers my pillow to her own

most comfortable when we are spooned right into each other

breathing the same air

eye lashes touching

one and the same.

The last 300 nights have been the most fractured sleep I've ever had
the last 300 days the most on-purpose I have ever felt.
My life
no longer just about me
but something far bigger
far greater than I ever imagined possible.

One of our first nights together after we arrived home.